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I went to the doctor the other day and she looked at the rash I have on my shoulder, stomach, and the back of my leg and gave me the most puzzled look. Basically, she doesn't know what it is, but she prescribed me an antibiotic because she's afraid I could get a staff infection and gave me this heavy duty cream to hopefully clear it up. She also gave me Lunesta to help me sleep, but for some reason she didn't write it on the prescription pad so I didn't get it.

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Have you ever been so far into debt that the thought of it makes you gag? I haven't bought one thing for Christmas and I am already so far behind (where I haven't caught up from being unemployed) that I can't think about it really without bursting into tears. However, I have to say that the VW people are great! I mean, really! I guess they can be nice when they realize that I'm not ducking them and doing what I can to pay them. I actually told one lady that I was unemployed for several months and she was so nice about it. But then, I call them when I say I'm going to and I pay them when I say I can.

As for my other credit cards. I have all three of them caught up, for the moment, while the other one is sooooo over that it's bad. I can't even pay it online because it's been so long. *sigh* I think I might have to get another job to pay for it.

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On another note, this lady I baby sat for is moving with the kids to London because her husband was reassigned with the Army. And so, she invited me to London once they get settled and everything, which I would love to go if I could get there by boat. I HATE FLYING. Also, she said if I lost my job that I could move over there and live with them and be a fulltime nanny! That would be great, but I would be homesick like crazy! I mean, my family is so totally close that it would drive me crazy. Although, there are other perks to going. I mean, it would be a once in a lifetime opportunity!

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Landon is getting so big. He's laughing and cooing and it's just so precious! I'm getting Christened on Saturday so I can be his Godmother when he gets baptized. The Orthodox are much more strict about it than the Catholics.

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I'm gonna offend people with this post, and I can't say I actually care.

I don't know what my f-lists religious preference is, but let me ask people this. I'm sure I have Athiests on my F-list, so I'm posing this question to you. What is it about people who value religion that offends you? You realize that by claiming to be an Athiest that you're becoming involved in a religion, right? But that's not my point. My point is why are you so offended by people believing in God, Allah, or whoever?

You can claim that wars have been fought over religion, but some wars are fought because some crazy person gets into power (i.e. Hitler, Stalin, Kahn). You don't really have a leg to stand on with that one. But I take issue with those that would try to destroy the belief that people have that gives them hope. Who the hell are you to crush someone's hopes?! Where is it your place to try and dissuade someone from believing? So, they try to sway you, that's your excuse? But if that's the case then in the end they're trying to give you something that brings hope to the world. If you ask me, your view of the world is depressing and empty. Why would I want to believe that there is nothing better? Why would I want to throw my belief into something that leaves people bitter and dissatisfied with life? And if they weren't bitter or dissatisfied, why the need to try and change the beliefs of those who are followers of a religion?

I believe that everyone has the right to believe what they want, that in the end they will pay the price for it. To me, there are so many miracles that happen in this world that it never occurred to me not to believe. It's part of who I am. I'm a Christian and with that comes with certain understandings that there is something out there greater for me, that there is someone out there that loves me unconditionally, no matter the crime, and would forgive me if I was sorry. The love and sacrafice that Jesus showed for us is beautiful. Whether you believe it or not, it's beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.

So, yes, it offends me when people try to taint something like Christmas. It's a joyous holiday and people want to rub their filth over it and destroy it for those that it actually means something to. It's become very commercialized, I realize that, but the underlying reason for the holiday is lovely, inspirational, and full of hope. How can you be so cold to try and take that hope away?