Endless Summer Nights

I decided that since I've been depressed that the best thing to do is to look at the good things I have. The good outweighs the bad, really.

Good things:
- My family - while they drive me crazy, most days, I know that when I need them there are there with all the love and support they can offer. My Godfather, my dad's youngest brother, just called me today because he was thinking about me and wanted to talk to me. One of my dad's sisters was in the Disney store when it was going out of business and saw some Nightmare Before Christmas stuff and knew I loved it, so she bought it and sent it to me, just because. My dad and mom have done everything they can to make me feel better, to my dad trying to make me laugh because he doesn't like to see me upset. Landon offers hugs and kisses at random times and has come up to me recently and patted me and said "Ashey no cry, ok?"
- My friends - specifically Michelle - is a never ending ream of support. I have to say that while she does get on my nerves occasionally, she's as close to a sister as I will ever have. Thing is, we're both two people who don't let the other wallow and feel sorry for themselves. We kick one another in the ass when we need it, we listen, and we're capable of making the other laugh when no one else can. She is driving four hours the weekend of my birthday just to hang out with me.
- My computer - it's pretty awesome. I bought it as a whole set from Sam's a few years ago. It's a Dell, which is all I will ever own now, and it's fabulous! It has enough room for me to play WoW and keep both Sims 2 and 3.
- World of Warcraft - you have no idea how cathartic it is to go kill some stuff when you're feeling upset.
- Craig Ferguson - I DVR this show because he makes me laugh. I think he's the best late night has to offer. I really like that he rarely ever talks to the people about what they're there to plug. Some of my favorite recent guests: Tom Felton, Robert Downy Jr., Tim Allen, Gerard Butler, and Emma Thompson. I also love his little cussing rabbit, Sid.
- That 70's Show and Big Bang Theory - I love these two shows. I've seen some episodes of That 70's Show so many times I can recite the words. Big Bang Theory, I love this show the more I watch it.
- The soundtracks of Glee - Truly has helped me get through today. "Don't Stop Believing", "Dream On", "Smile", and "Alone" can always bring a smile to my face, and goosebumps to my arms.
- And last but not least, you guys - There is a core group of you that offer never ending support. As long as I've had this journal, I know that I can come here and tell you guys things that I would never tell my real life people and you would never judge me of it. Some of you post things that make me laugh, think, and sometimes go "PLEASE PUT NAKED PEOPLE BEHIND A CUT" but it's almost always entertaining. My last post I cried while I wrote it, but after the love and support you guys sent my way, it really did make me feel better. You're the best online friends that a person could ever have.

So, really, thank you so much guys. Just keep being you.

Photographer's pictures for Brittni and Adam's wedding!!

Jaimie Champagne Photography

My favorite is the one of Landon giving Brittni a kiss!

let me tell you about what has happened here today and tell me whether or not you would be a nervous damn wreck

So, on Friday, Kristin has class at like 8 and Adam and Brad worked. Brittni decided to spend her free time at her grandmother's, sans Landon. Which means we had both babies starting at 9 this morning. I'm already on edge because I'm about to start and EVERYTHING pisses me off

and my mom, who usually takes Prozac to control her craziness hadn't taken her meds in three weeks and she's been snapping at everyone. Well, to make this even more complicated, Jessica, a friend of Brittni's brought her two year old son to come stay with us for the weekend. I told you that, though. I love Gavin, and it would be fine, but he whines and doesn't mind, two things I just can't handle. However he and Landon play well together.

So, by three o'clock we have all three babies. Adam and Brittni come in with bottles of liquor they have hidden in brittni's purse because my mom and dad have told them, specifically her, that they don't want her drinking. She takes meds and it doesn't mix well. Anyway, they start drinking about 5 and my dad gets home and starts cooking around 7

So, he's outside working the grill and adam and brittni come in from the ice cream man where they bought both gavin and landon ice cream and proceed to feed it to them right then. Adam then went upstairs and left them in the living room with my mother. My mom is screaming at Adam to come downstairs and get them because they're filthy, only he doesn't hear her and she has to scream for ten minutes. I've already gone out tehre and tried to fix it, but she wouldn't let me

So then Adam comes downstairs and mom is screaming at him that he's an idiot for giving them popcicles right before they eat. and he didn't see anything wrong with it and kind of argued with her. Well, my dad was inside by this time and told Adam that he was drunk and needed to watch his child. Mom said that gavin was sleeping with them because they gave them ice cream. Adam said no he wasn't he's not his kid and then Brittni STORMS downstairs, throws Landon's green ice cream filled tray on my mother's $700 rug and storms upstairs. Adam then gets into it with Brittni about my mom being a bitch and yadda yadda yadda

So, Adam comes back downstairs and goes outside. Landon is in my mother's room with Gavin and Peyton when Brittni KICKS THE DOOR IN and snatches Landon. She's drunk as SHIT. She was already stumbling around and fell in the floor before all this happened. So, she backs into the corner, holding Landon who is screaming because she's LOST IT! My dad goes over to her to try and explain that she can leave, but she can't take Landon while she's drunk. She goes to hit my dad and hits Landon in the head with her cellphone when she swings and punches my dad in the face.

I ran and got Adam who went outside to smoke a cigarette, and she punched him in the head too. Adam runs inside, Brittni is now holding a crying screaming Landon and is about to drop him in the process of traying to hit adam and my dad again. Brad manages to snatch Landon frpom brittni and runs out of the room and into the bathroom. Adam is not restraining Brittni from behind as they're falling to the floor and she's trying to head butt him with the back of her head and instead she caught her eye on the corner of my dad's nightstand and split it open

now they're at the hospital getting brittni some stitches

my dad took her even though she slugged him in the face

Listening to Carolina Liar! I really like this band! I first heard of them through VH1's weekly countdown, and I really like the band.

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I asked my parents if we could have a night where no one was at the house but our family. I just can't take all the people all the time. It's constant. It's like we live in grand central station. We were sitting down ready to eat last night, mom, Kristin, and I and the next thing I know, Brittni's friend Ashley, who I can't stand, and Jessica, and we all know my feelings on Jessica, joined us. And Kristin could see the irritation on my face and goes "What's the matter?" and I was like "You really want to know?" and she nodded and I said "I'm tired of people that don't live here being here all the time," in front of Jessica and Ashley, although they're both so dense I don't think they caught it.

So, later, Kristin and I are standing in the kitchen talking, and Ashley walked by and asked if I would get her something and I said no, and told her where it was, she gave some smart ass comment back, and I nearly went after her because I'm just so tired of her give me I'm special attitude. She's an attention whore.

( Reasons why I dislike her )

So, yeah, maybe all that's petty and I should have sympathy for her and Jessica, but my sympathy is gone. I have none. I just want everyone out of our house that isn't related to us. When it's just my family and their significant others it's my parents, brad, kristin, adam, brittni, brandon, and dixie (brad and kristin's yellow lab). Can you imagine what it's like when you add 5 more people to that???

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They're planning to remake Buffy the Vampire Slayer, without any of the original or main players?!?!? No Joss?!?!? It's his creation and no one can do it justic. And plain and simple, Sarah Michelle Gellar is and always will be Buffy. Anything else will pale in comparsion.

I think this shows that the writers in Hollywood are simply out of ideas.

Finally got my Death Knight for WoW! I've yet to play it because I spent all day trying to level to get the damn thing! Have I mentioned how much I hate the Plaguelands area? East and West? Mainly because I hate zombies!!

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Well, I'm going to be an Aunt again, it seems. Brad and his fiance are having a baby. They have moved back in with us, along with their dog. So, it feels like I live in a hotel.

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Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's on my F-list!

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No Spoilers, just comments on hotness.

Saw X-Men. Yes, Hugh was hot as Wolverine, as always. But I felt myself strangely drawn to Liev as Sabertooth! I mean, he's kind of sexy in a completely bad sort of way. Taylor Kitch did a decent job as Gambit, although, I'm kind of pissed that his eyes weren't red on black, as they should be, but at least they glowed red at certain points.

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I WANT TO SEE STAR TREK!!

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I want to go to the beach. Badly. Mainly because I just really need a break.

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One of my friends from high school is getting married next Saturday, and my best friend is getting married the following Saturday. Everyone I know is getting married, except me. Sad. But not really. My money is my own. I don't answer to anyone else. And I'm allowed to be a homebody. But then again, it's kind of lonely. But then, you can't be lonely in this house because you're never alone!!

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To the Sims 2 players on my flist there is a site you must know about:

http://paysites.mustbedestroyed.org/

You see, by EA games own standards and rules, people are not allowed to charge for content they create because it's a copyright infringement. Sort of like charging for fan fiction. So, this site pays the dues to ALL the sites that charge for certain content, like peggysims and around the sims and allows you to download it for free. Yes, I had issues with doing it the first time, but after I was then able to create the perfect Draco Malfoy, I got over it. ;)

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ETA!: Changed my layout! Comment to let me know what you think!!

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